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Pre-Trip Dispatches to Friends and Family
Part of my process of doing this trip was to break out of
my "I can do it myself" pattern. The first way I thought to
do that was to be in touch with everyone who wanted to know about my trip.
The list ended up being about 125 people. All the feedback I got was positive.
I put these letters up so that those who were not on the
list from the start could get caught up. These letters may give your a
glimpse of what it's like to plan a trip like this.
I'm hiking the Pacific Crest Trail (PCT)*
in 2002! I wanted to let you know about my plans and about opportunities
to be part of my adventure. Even though my departure is months and months
away, just planning of this adventure gets me excited. This is the first
of a series of monthly-or so-email dispatches.
_____//Questions\\_____. . . . .and answers
I know you probably have lots of questions. [In my newsletter,
I'll be anwering the questions month by month. On the site, they are condensed
onto one page: FAQs.] I'll start with
the first one here. The question I get the most is:
Q: Will you
do this hike alone?
_____//Opportunities\\_____. . . . .and credit due
Here's my list with opportunities for
support (the most important first): [I know you are anxious
to help. These requests went out with the newsletter and most of them
have been filled. This page shows what
help I still need. My friends and family have been pretty great with helping
out.]
- Storage
- I'd like to find 1-3 places to store
my stuff (April-September/ October 2002) rather than paying a storage
facility. Central California locations are ideal, but points north could
work. I don't have that much stuff, I think.
- Photo Jockey
- The web site will have lots of pictures if I can have
someone help me manage them.
- Hook Up
- I'd love to see you while I'm on the
trail. I'll be crossing roads and ending up in obscure places. I'll
have an itinerary subject to lots of variables, but I know I'll generally
be heading north ;-). Contact me and we can identify some targets. Set
up a meal or night off the trail with me! You can use the rendezvous
as an excuse to see the Southern California desert in May, the Sierra
in June & July, Oregon in August and Washington in September. Sorry
-Johnscott and Rob have already claimed Rainy Pass in Washington.
- Trail Goodies
- Although my diet has some hellacious
restrictions, I'd love to get treats of food and for the spirit
along the trail. It's not that complicated - my diet or getting the
goods to me. Details to follow, and you don't have to let me know about
this. I'll let you know how you can initiate and implement a drop on
your own. Trail goodies are a surprise.
+++Jobs Already Claimed+++ (My way of thankfully giving
credit)
- Shipping Coordinator plus
- My Dad, also John Brennan, and his
wife Susan have agreed to mail my resupply boxes to me. This duty is
a big one, and I am so grateful they accepted without hesitation. They'll
work with me to get the right food and gear to me at the right town
stop. Thank you, thank you Dad and Susan. [A different
Susan will fill in when Dad & Susan are gone.]
- Set Up Web Site
- Kwai has agreed to work with me to
establish and implement the design. Plus, he'll help me get up to speed
on Dreamweaver in the process. [As you can see, he's
been helping...]
- Journal Babe
- David Gilmore is going to receive
my journal entries via email and post to the site. There may be other
requests. I'll keep you posted.
_____//Web Site\\_____. . . . .and outta here
I am looking forward having you along on this adventure. My site will
be at www.frozenpoodle.com/pct/.
(Even if it's a mid-90s, retro text-only site, something will be there.)
There's no there there, yet. I'll let you know when you can check it out.
[Needless to say... It's here. Some of you might have gotten
here from www.cupcakewalk.com.]
Until next time, John
*Find out more about the PCT at www.pcta.org
. It's a 2,650-mile trail from Mexico to Canada. With a little focus and
hocus pocus I'll be starting in April, 2002, and will probably finish
in September.
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This is the second of my monthly pre-departure dispatches.
A LOT has happened since my last email. After September
11th, working at a Department of Defense site in a so-so job suddenly
became a lot more dangerous. I worked September 12-14, but then I took
a three-week, short-term disability leave from the office.
I struggled with taking this action, but my support network eventually
convinced me it was the right thing to do. I'm glad they did. Now that
my leave is over, I'm back at the job. I am glad that I had the benefits
to allow me to sort it all out. I'm not entirely comfortable at work,
but the job market, my current salary, and my short-timer status [They
don't know at work about my trip yet. Don't mention it.] make it
feel do-able. Obviously, I don't feel in dire danger on a daily basis.
As time has passed, the scary behavior from co-workers and management,
mostly in the form of emails, has stopped.
The time away from the office gave me the space I needed to emotionally
deal with what happened to the extent I could return to work.
Onward...
On the gear front, this is the month I start to weigh my
gear, old and new.
I got a nifty little scale from ebay (my first ebay purchase). The first
piece of gear I weighed was my old Lowe Alpine pack, the one I carried
this year on the JMT. It came in at an amazing 94 ounces (5.9lbs)! For
an empty pack!! It's amazing only in that if I can get my base weight
(gear & clothes minus water, food, and fuel) down to 12 or 15 pounds,
I can use a G4 pack
that weighs just 12 ounces. That's over 5 pounds off my back right there!
One pack isn't necessarily better than the other. The Lowe Alpine pack
is designed for rough, off-trail conditions. The G4 is designed for on-trail,
low abrasion backpacking. They're different tools. BUT, why use the wrong
tool, especially if it weight 5 pounds more? The G4 will be one of my
last purchases, since I won't know if I can get my weight down until I
have the rest of my gear.
So, once I have my gear weighed, I can document my transition from traditional
backpacking to lightweight backpacking. I suspect my base weight will
drop from 40 lbs to 15 lbs. How I'll do that is a story I may get to later.
I'm also starting to price the foods I want to bring. Since
I'll be buying six-months' worth of food, I'll get quantity discounts,
but it's still going to be a huge outlay of money and a large coordination
effort. I learned a lot this year prepping for my JMT hike, the foremost
being that it takes a steady effort and significant amount of time to
cook, dehydrate, and assemble home-made backpacking food.
_____//Questions\\_____. . . . .and answers
Q: How long will it take?
Q: When do you
leave?
_____//Opportunities\\_____. . . . .and credit due
Here's my list with opportunities for support (the most important first):
- Wholesale Food
- I'm looking to get a long list of foods in case quantities.
My local stores offer 10% off the case price, but I'm looking to see
if I can do better. I'm trying to buy as much organic as possible, and
the better deals I can get means more organic. I'll actually not be
eating much traditional "freeze-dried backpacking food" like
Mountain High or Alpine Aire, perhaps one a week. Instead, I'll be creating
my own meals suitable to the requirements of my diet. I'll also be eating
other yummy stuff.
- Artist/Writers Retreats
- This is actually a request for post-trip help, but I
need to set it up now. Does anyone out there know anyone who's been
to a funded artist/writers retreat? I want to do some fiction and non-fiction
writing about my adventures and would like some focused time to pull
it together. The place I'm looking for ideally covers room and board,
and possibly transportation costs. Sacatar Foundation offers a program
that is perfect. I'm also looking at Millay Colony in NY, the Writer's
Colony at Dairy Hollow in AR, and Fine Arts Work Center in Provincetown.
Are there other places that are good that I haven't mentioned? I'd like
to find out more about these places, the selection process, personal
contacts, and any tips on making this a successful effort.
- Photo Jockey
- Still looking for someone to receive photos, pick a
few, scan them and put them up to the site. Volume and frequency will
be up to you. There may be other requests. I'll keep you posted.
-
- +++Jobs Already Claimed+++ (My way of thankfully giving
credit)
- Storage
- Susie in SF, Ferne in Corte Madera and Tom in Monterey
all have possibilities for storage. When the time gets closer, we'll
look at the situation and probably have it handled. If not, I'll put
the word out again. Thanks Ferne, Tom & Susie!
- Some Food
- Green Valley (Organic Energy Bars)
Blender Culture (Blender Bar)
Adrienne's Gourmet Foods (Lentil Orzo)
I've made arrangements for good bulk prices for my trip on these items.
Food's off to a good start.
Until next time, John
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This is the third of my monthly pre-departure dispatches
leading up to hiking the Pacific Crest Trail next year.
One thing I've been thinking about since I last wrote you
is my mileage, my daily mileage. Before too long on my trip, I'll be able
to do 30-mile days (or more), but I'm pretty sure I don't want to.
I am not likely to repeat this PCT adventure. I don't want to miss it.
I don't want to find myself done in an amazingly few number of days. I
don't want to have gone so far so fast that I didn't meet other hikers,
that I didn't linger for views, meadows, or blooms. I stopped to watch
a young buck drinking from a small lake at sunset this summer. I'll never
forget it. I don't want my PCT trail time to be a blur.
So, not rushing looks like making a commitment to 20- to
25-mile days, and not fretting about the 12- or 18-mile days. I'll be
deliberately putting the brakes on, taking the time to jump in a lake,
be friendly, and look at the landscape. It may seem natural to do all
of these things on a hike. However, this summer on my 300-mile jaunt I
found that I had the urge to move. I wasn't racing, but I was covering
ground. I was in awe of the power of moving through the landscape; to
be on one pass and to look back at the pass I'd come over earlier in the
day, to experience moving through the trees.
I also worry that if I go too slow, that I could lose focus.
I think a steady pace, accented with breaks, is the answer for me. I also
have a number of friends who have expressed interest in hiking with me,
so I'll get a double bonus. These friends will probably be ready for 8-12
mile days, so I'll get to spend time with friends and they'll help me
keep my mileage down. Sound pretty good to me. I'll have to work out my
food when friends are along since I'll need be on the trail for a longer
time between segments.
My normal routine will be something like this: Leave camp
between 6 and 7, hike, have breakfast after a few miles, hike, have lunch,
hike, have a snack, hike, cook dinner around 5, and hike until sunset
or into dusk. Each of those meals will be at the best place I can find
to take a break: a lake, on a ridge, looking into a valley, on a pass.
A new dining room for every meal. Have started my training hikes. So far
both have been on rainy days... I hope it's not foreshadowing. :-)
_____ //Questions\\_____. . . . .and answers
Q: How can you afford to
take this much time off work?
Q: How much does
a trip like this cost?
Q: You're
not hiking in boots?!?
_____//Opportunities\\_____. . . . .and credit due
Here's my list with opportunities for support (the most
important first): This section is short this time.
- Join the Pacific Crest Trail Association
- This one won't help my hike directly, but the Pacific
Crest Trail Association is a small non-profit that exists to support
hikers and organize trail maintenance. Their basic membership is $35
a year. While you are pondering, you can get more info at www.pcta.org.
Jobs Already Claimed+++ (My way of thankfully giving credit)
- Address
- My sister, Samantha, has agreed to let her address be
my address during the hike. Thanks! She'll look out for bills, throw
out junk, and have a big box for me when I get back.
- Photo Jockey
- Cousin Nick in Philadelphia has agreed to work with me
to set up a system to get photos on the web. Rob in Washington has agreed
to help if needed.
That's all for this time,
John
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This is the fourth of my monthly pre-departure dispatches.
When we last left our hero, he was planning and pondering.
I've started the process of getting my food together for the trip. I'll
need 5,000-6,000 calories a day. That pretty much means that I can eat
whatever I want, and as much of it as I want. I MUST eat that much food
or I crash. Luckily, it's very clear when I don't eat enough.
The food needs to be lightweight, portable and a snap to cook.
I learned, preparing for this year's JMT trip, that it takes a long time
to get the meals together, especially when I assemble my own meals. I'll
be preparing 150 breakfasts, 150 dinners and a bunch of extra meals for
large hot lunches. I'll need to make sure I have enough variety that I
don't go crazy. It's a tall order.
On other fronts, I've started pursing sponsorships for my
trip. It's too soon to see how well my efforts will pay off. I have requests
into Odwalla (for their bars), Flora (for their flax seed blend capsules
and Beyond Greens), and Bay Photo (for film and processing).
For those interested in a little reading, the journal is
up for my John Muir Trail hike this summer. The site's a small practice
one for my PCT trip. It's not quite done, and may never get done, but
the journal is there with a few photos. Check out http://www.frozenpoodle.com/jmt
and follow the journal link. You are welcome to send me comments about
the layout or readability.
_____//Questions\\_____. . . . .and answers
Q: What is this hike
you're doing? [This question should have been answered first!]
Q: So what will
you wear on your feet if you are not wearing hiking boots?
Q: What's a
bounce box?
_____//Facts\\_____. . . . .and more facts
-By switching from my Kelty Zen tent (6 lbs) to my tarp
setup (1.8 lbs), I won't have to carry an extra 4 pounds for 2,600 miles.
These kind of weight savings adds up.
_____//Opportunities\\_____. . . . .and credit due
Here's my list with opportunities for support (the most important first):
This section continues to be short. A lot of the major stuff
is covered, but keep on looking. There may be other things coming up.
- Music Master
- I may be taking an MP3 player on my hike. I need someone
to upload music. I'll supply CDs with music files. The Music Master
will need a USB connection and will use Windows Media Player v 7 or
higher (or other music software that will recognize a Compaq iPaq PA-2
MP3 player) to move files in 64MB chunks onto MMCs. We can talk details
if you are interested.
+++Jobs Already Claimed+++
(My way of thankfully giving credit)
- Finances
- I have two friends who are helping me sort out the finances
for my trip. There are lots of things I need for the trip, and some
things I want. They're helping me keep clear about what's what. They
are also helping me make sure there's enough money when I get off the
trail. I am very grateful to B & L for their efforts to help me
keep me on track.
- Christmas Gifts
- Wow. It was a great Christmas. Mom got me a new Palm
(m125). It's great. I'll use it on the trail to keep my journal. Janet
got me the light-weight Thermarest AND the Black Diamond Moonlight headlamp,
both excellent gifts. Dad & Susan, Patrick & Andrew, and Samantha
contributed to the custom shoe fund. Also got silk long underwear. My
gear list is getting shorter and shorter.
That's it for December. Happy New Year!
John
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This is the fifth of my monthly pre-departure dispatches.
How many of you were hanging on your seats, wondering if I'd get my January
edition out in ...January?? I know I was. Rather than a longer edition
this month, I decided to make this one normal length and to send another
dispatch in a week or so. I know, I know. I promised I'd send these once
a month...
We are now in the year that I depart! My excitement is building.
Food is on my mind these days. I've been experimenting with
flavors and textures, dehydrating almost anything to see if it will work
to take on the trail, and putting together one huge shopping list for
ingredients for creating my own meals, and prepared food. Have you ever
tried to figure out how much oats you'll eat in the next five months?
How much pasta? And all this without packing so much that you get sick
of it? It's daunting, but enjoyable because it's all working toward my
big adventure.
On other fronts, my fundraising has started. So far, I've
received $820 in cash, and received about $160 in food and gear. I'm also
getting a lot of logistical, emotional, and spiritual support from many
people. I can't put a price on it, but all of it is teaching me in ways
I didn't expect to learn. The fundraising is off to a great start. The
email in a week or so will have more about that.
I've been thinking lately about why I'm doing this trip.
It's not just a hike. I didn't know that when I made the decision, but
it's readily apparent today.
Hiking the Pacific Crest Trail, I'm finding out, is like the first act
in a three-act play. I'm living the prologue right now: I'm finding out
that I can't make it happen alone; that there are people who want to support
my vision, and that my vision is inspiring others.
The stage is set, but acts two and three are not yet written. I'm excited
to find out what happens.
_____//Questions\\_____. . . . .and answers
Q: What
have I done to pare down the weight of my pack (Part 1-Gear)?
Q: How far
will you have to go to get water?
_____//Facts\\_____. . . . .and more facts
Each year 200-300 people start hiking the Pacific Crest Trail, and 50
or 60 finish. Most of them hike from south to north. Of course, it's a
wide-open trail and many people could get by uncounted. There is an informal
group of people who try to keep track. The Pacific Crest Trail Association
also has an interest in keeping good records. Many of the major stops
along the way have trail registers where hikers can sign it. It's one
way we hikers keep track of each other along the way. It's also a way
to count hikers, but who's a thru-hiker and who's just on for the day
or week?
_____//Opportunities\\_____. . . . .and credit due
Here's my list with opportunities for support (the most important first):
- Matching Donation
- A friend has put up $250 toward my vision if I can get
three other people to also put up $250. The deadline is February 15.
If you've been wondering how you can be more involved in supporting
my vision, this is it. If you need more information, it's on the way.
[It's not too late! Any donations accepted. Here's
how.]
- Laptop
- I am looking for an old laptop that somebody might have
sitting in their closet. I don't need much in terms of performance.
It should have a CD-ROM, a modem (or at least a PCMCIA slot), and USB.
The laptop will go in my bounce box, and I'll use it to back up my Palm,
transfer music to my MP3, send and receive email, and do web site management.
My existing ancient laptop cannot be coaxed into accommodating USB.
- Taxes
- I can do my 2001 taxes, but I think that I should have
someone look at them and talk with me to make sure I'm getting the biggest
return. Added bonus: I am ready to go now. My return should be a simple
1040 with what I think will be a simple Schedule D. Do you know this
stuff inside out? Are you good at your own taxes? Lend a hand to someone
who has only recently graduated from years of doing a phone-in 1040EZ.
- Food Mill
- I need to borrow a food mill to grind cooked and dehydrated
grains. You'll get it back in mid-April.
Thanks
- Thanks You Cards
- Thanks to Walter for the wonderful image created for
my thank you cards. Some of you have already gotten to see the card.
More are on the way.
- Low Rent
- When I moved into my current place, I negotiated the
rent price down with Shane, my roommate. I didn't recognize it when
I moved in here, but Shane's intention was to be supporting my vision.
I thought he was just being nice. Thanks Shane for a fun and supportive
place to launch my trip.
- Free Food and an Ice Axe
- Thanks to Margo for a lot of backpacking food and a perfect
ice axe. Margo did 900 miles of the PCT in 2001. She's on to other adventures,
and wanted to support me in mine.
- Discounted Food
- Thanks to Staff of Life grocery store in Santa Cruz.
They are offering a better-than-case price on one big special order
purchase with them. It helps that they have a lot of the food I'll be
taking
That's all for January. Hope the new year is off to a good
start for you.
John
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We are now in the countdown now! If you are skimming,
please look at the music request below.
This is the sixth of my monthly pre-departure dispatches.
February ended abruptly, so you are getting February's letter in March.
If you think you missed the supplement promised in the January letter,
it didn't go out. All in good time.
---
Yesterday, Bart, Wind, Beanpole, and I were at the beach. They decided
my trail name should be Cupcake. My initial resistance has yielded to
the brilliance; and the source of the name. Say hello to Cupcake.
--
Rico (of Ricolino and Kranky fame)
asked me to talk about exactly how much of a commitment a trip like this
entails, in terms of time and planning. Hopefully my reply will be as
interesting as a Ricolino and Kranky performance. I know it won't be as
funny. In short, making this trip happen is a part-time job.
I've had several phases to my commitment to this trip. More
than a year ago, in January and February, 2001, I committed to investigating
the timing of the trip and what it would entail. I talked to people, researched
online and quickly decided. Back of the napkin calculations revealed that
to hike the PCT starting in April 2001 would be financial suicide. Given
that there's a short window to begin a thru-hike, my next possible start
date was April 2002. That took off some pressure. I then joined two email
lists, backpackinglight on YahooGroups (www.yahoogroups.com),
and PCT-L (http://mailman.backcountry.net/mailman/listinfo/pct-l).
I've read every email since and learned a lot about the trail and about
lightening my load.
I've sort of slid into the commitment of doing the hike.
I've always been 100% clear that I wanted to do the hike. I just wasn't
certain about the money. As I bought more gear and my savings began to
build, it felt like I was moving closer to actually going. Today, there
is no doubt on any front, but I couldn't tell you when I knew for certain
that I was doing the trail.
A quick investigation at work revealed that a request for
6 months would be beyond the scope of a leave of absence. Was I willing
to quit my job for this trip? Yes. Another answer to increase my commitment.
Also related to work, I discovered, by some miracle of accounting period
switches, that at my 4-year anniversary, I had vested in my retirements.
I could quit at any time without losing my retirement.
I also had several levels of support for me doing the trip.
During the Billy New Years gathering (2000-2001) at Heartwood in Northern
California, Richard Szubin and I met. Richard had hiked the California
section in 1999. We talked for the rest of the gathering about the PCT,
long-distance hiking, and ultra-light backpacking. Within a few short
weeks, he had sent me Beyond Backpacking by Ray Jardine, the guru
of lightweight backpacking. Then, when I was looking to move for the fourth
time since moving to Santa Cruz, my current roommate Shane provided support
in the form of lower rent. That got the ball rolling. Next, my Dad and
his wife, Susan, said they be my home base of support. Things were falling
into place easily.
I used to live by the guidelines of "No plants. No
pets. No rings." Although I don't hold those values as I high as
I did in the past, those three facts still are manifest in my life, so
the sort of detail that ties one down were not an issue for me. And no
kids or mortgage either.
Finances and preparation have been the biggest commitment
so far. Since I need to work to pay for the trip, I have limited preparation
time. I'm doing this trip because I want to, so I've never let preparing
become a bummer. I've remained committed to having fun with friends and
living life before I leave. I have had to make some changes and say no
to many opportunities, but it's all in the context of my trip.
I have pulled back from all of my volunteer efforts, and spend my evenings
and weekends making this trip happen. (That's the part-time job part of
it.)
I must admit that the calendar has crept up on me. It feels
like I've spent 10 months going at a snail's pace, and now the last two
months I have a ton to do. The last 12 months have been full of opportunity
for friends and events. I've said yes often, and trusted that everything
would be done in time. I'm having fun and get panicked just once in a
while.
--
Food continues to be a focus. As my friend Rose says, "It
is one thing to eat an unbalanced diet for a month, and another thing
to do it for six months." She's been a great source for info, and
has provided reminders of facts that needed to be reinforced. So, I'm
working toward optimum nutrition and enough calories. I can waiver on
the nutrition, but I can't on the calories. Nutritionally, I'll work toward
getting the right balance on all three types of fat, getting all my vitamins
and minerals, and eating organic. Calorie-wise, I'll need to be packing
them in, probably 5-6000 a day, as I mentioned last month.
The dehydrator has been on nearly constantly since the beginning of December.
My general strategy with dehydrating is to make more of the food I regularly
cook and dehydrate the leftovers. Then there's the giant food order. I'm
still working that out.
_____//Questions\\_____. . . . .and answers
Q: What
have I done to pare down the weight of my pack (Part 2-Philosphy)?
Q: Why
exactly is weight savings, even small, important?
Q: What's a trail name?
_____//Opportunities\\_____. . . . .and credit due
Here's my list with opportunities for support:
Music
I would like everyone to send me one or two songs they would like me
to have on the trail. MP3 or WMA formats are best. The easiest would be
to ftp them. Email me if you are interested, and I'll send the ftp location.
PLEASE DON'T EMAIL THE FILES. When I get them, I'll then put them on MiniDisc
and think of you when I'm in my bag headed to sleep and the song comes
on. Of course, you can also send me a CD you burned.
Don't let the technology be a hindrance to getting music to me. Let me
know if it's daunting, and I'll take you through the process. The two
requirements: You should have the music on CD and a CD-ROM on your computer.
I'm hoping for songs that have a lot of meaning to you, or convey a message
you'd like me to have.
Matching Donation
As I mentioned last month, I have a matching donation. I need one more
person to contribute $250 so that I can get a matching donation of $250.
Support.
Thanks
Odwalla
Bars
A double score on this front. Odwalla fulfilled my request for 20 caddies
of their Odwalla bars. That's 240! AND Tim and Christie had a case (96
bars) left over from their Alaska AIDS Vaccine bike ride, and they donated
them to my adventure. Thanks everybody. I may never want another Odwalla
bar when I'm done. At least I'll be well-nourished and have lots of tasty
snacks. Thanks Odwalla.
Laptop
Samantha and Brian found an old laptop for me! It has everything I need.
Thanks for looking and finding just what I need. (Next month: What I'm
doing with a laptop.)
MiniDisc
Jennifer and Greg got me a MiniDisc recorder. I had planned to get an
MP3 player. This MiniDisc is so much more. It can record! So now, in addition
to music at night, I'll have a microphone to do some audio diary entries
and interviews with other hikers. Now to find the perfect lightweight
microphone.
New Orthotics
Tim and Christi of PhysioSports in Monterey (and good friends) are making
new custom orthotics to help my feet thrive on this hike. Yipee.
There's more to tell you but this letter is overdue and
long enough. Hope you all are well.
Until later in March,
John
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This is the seventh of my monthly pre-departure dispatches.
It's now early April and this is my March letter. As those of you who know
me well, I am not the type to be late. Missing my own deadlines in front
of so many people is a good sign. I'm loosening up and choosing sleep over
being precise when precision does not matter. What a concept.
A quick update and summary of facts that have been spread
through these emails: I'm giving notice this Friday, April 5th. My last
day of work is April 19th. I fly to Tucson on April 24. David Gilmore
and I drive to Campo on April 25. I start hiking on April 26. Richard
may be joining me for my first day of hiking. I finish in September.
I have moved out of my place in Santa Cruz, and I'm housesitting
for my Dad and his wife while they are in Ireland. I got most of my stuff
into storage in SF in March. Living with Shane (and sometimes Terry) was
great. Now I begin the huge task of dividing up my food and supplies into
32 packages.
My new friend Keith asked me what I think I will gain from
my trip. Here's the answer:
I expect to gain my life. The last five years have been about finding
out what I like and how I want to live. I was raised in a fear-based,
middle class world. Those values are fairly ingrained, and I have been
working to shed them. My own unhappiness and my near-and-dear friends
have shown me by example that there can be another way. I used to be too
serious for a fellow without kids. I used to seek the job and life security
of a guy with a mortgage and big car payments. Most of my struggles in
life were about trying to live a life that I don't have. I'm a single
gay man, not a married straight couple with children. Of course, I have
had some insight into this over the years, but more recently I'd gotten
a better picture of the whole picture.
I am a powerful, happy man. Part of my power is my creativity, which has
a hard time expressing itself in a 5-day, 40-hour workweek with a 90-minute
daily commute. I hope to regain my power and to cultivate my happiness.
The decision to do this trip was a dive into the unknown.
I was able to test the waters some, but there are parts of this that I
just don't know about. Will my body hold up? Will my mind hold up? What
will I do when I finish? Where will I live? Should I travel around? Should
I save my money? Will I die? Will I live?
I decided early on that I would need to have faith, which is not a word
I throw around. I realized at some point that the Catholics, my religion
of origin, had co-opted the word faith. For most of my life, I'd just
avoided the word. Now I'm using it with my own understanding and experience
of the definition. I suppose the two definitions are fairly similar, but
I respect my definition because I've experienced faith first-hand. I fundamentally
distrusted the Catholics' because it had been presented to me as dogma.
So, I'm having faith that my decision to hike the PCT is good for me,
that it will benefit and enrich my life in ways that I cannot anticipate.
I'm having faith that quitting my job will not be the end of the world,
will not preclude other financial goals, and not set me back. I'm having
faith that choosing to make room for love and creativity will allow those
elements to flourish.
_____//Questions\\_____. . . . .and answers
Q: What
are trail angels?
Q: What are you going
to do with a laptop?
Q: How can we communicate
with you on the trail?
_____//Opportunities\\_____. . . . .and credit due
Here's my list with opportunities for support (the most important first):
I'm going to have a packaging party in Santa Cruz soon.
We'll spend a few hours breaking down food into smaller packages. If you
would like to be a part of it, let me know, and I'll send you details.
I can't think of anything else I need right now, other than
a few packages to get here soon.
Thanks and More Thanks
Matching Donation
I have some thanks for the matching fund challenge grant.
First, thanks to Tom Truss for putting up the matching donation. Tom is
a great friend, a big supporter, and an amazing artist. Next, thanks to
Jean Sward from San Rafael for her contribution to the matching grant.
She was the first to pitch in $250. Jean was part of the team that sent
me off on my John Muir Trail hike last year. Thanks to Riversong and Wonderful,
two generous supportive men, for their assistance in meeting the matching
funds. Finally, thanks to Johnny Thunder for his contribution. He was
worried that he couldn't contribute less than $250. I assured him that
he could.
Food
Thanks to SunRidge Farms for giving me good prices on a huge food order.
It's hard to believe that in six months I will have eaten over a hundred
pounds of trail mix. What's great about getting good prices was that it
allowed me to buy organic foods, which are generally more expensive.
1971 National Geographic
My friend Tree brought down a gift from Gary, a friend I've hiked with:
The 1971 National Geographic featuring the Pacific Crest Trail,
plus a vintage guide to the major sites and features. What an amazing
gift. Thanks.
Ride to the Trail
I had several offers to get to me to the trail to start the hike. In
the end, it worked out best to go with Beanpole (David Gilmore). I'll
get to see his new house in Tucson, and we'll have a little road trip.
I feel like I'm forgetting to thank someone here. There's always next
month.
John
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This is the eight and final of my monthly pre-departure dispatches. Hopefully
you are still reading. To get information from here on out, go to the
web site, www.cupcakewalk.com. I'm in a time crunch as I get ready to
leave, so this will be short. As I write this, I'm in Tucson.
Here are the ways we can be in touch while I am on the trail:
1. The web site for the trip: www.cupcakewalk.com
2. Voicemail: 415 626-5646. Please only leave urgent or rendezvous messages.
I'll be checking it every few weeks.
3. Email: The email address for my trip is "cupcake AT cupcakewalk.com".
If you send an email to other addresses, I'll get it, but I won't have
as ready access to it as the other.
4. US Postal Service: You can mail stuff to me. The web site explains
more here: Itinerary.
I still need some time to get it up there...
I'm hoping to put together a Sierra Pass Party in June, around the solstice.
I'll have to see how my hiking progresses. In general, I'll time it to
arrive at a major Sierra pass (Tioga, Sonora, Donner, etc.) on a Friday,
and hang Saturday with whoever shows up. Details to follow.
I'm going to have a piece on Outright
Radio that will air this summer. PRI is distributing it, and local
NPR stations have the option of airing it, so you may hear it. It's about
standing up to the 'anti-gay' bullies in high school, and part of the
Bashing Back show. If your station doesn't carry it, you can listen to
it online.
_____//Questions\\_____. . . . .and answers
Q: What will you do after
the trail?
Q: How was your departure
from work? From Santa Cruz?
_____//Facts\\_____. . . . .and more facts
I start the trail on Friday, April 26, 2002!
- _____//Thanks\\_____
Voice Mail
- Thanks once again to Larry and Bill in SF who got voicemail set up
for me. Leave brief messages at 415 626-5646 during my trip.
- Fund Raising Team
- I want to thank Bart, Bill, Ben and Walter for the thought, insight
and experience they brought to my fund raising. They insisted I would
not be a pauper by asking, encouraged me to ask for what I needed, and
helped me craft what I hope were fairly painless requests. Although
I did not put a formal request out to this email list, I still managed
to raise almost $3,000. It was shy of my ultimate goal. If you want
to contribute go to the support page of www.cupcakewalk.com.
There are other people - lots - to thank. That will have to wait for
another day.
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